Lord Help Me!!!!

Today I wish I could be in a room - alone with my thoughts, my prayers, and in God's presence. I am trying to make it - I am working while reading scripture and listening to worship music on my ipod. But these are the days I wish I could spend hours with God praying to Him and asking for his help. I need his help more than ever. As most of you know I divorced in 2006 after 8 years of marriage and 15 years with the same man. Divorce is such an evil thing. I see how it has pulled apart not only my family but also other families.
Divorce has hurt my children more than I will ever know and continues to haunt me. I feel the greatest need to protect my children more than ever and if one ever decided to go live with their Dad I think I would absolutely be devastated. My kids will forever struggle with trying to please both parents. I always put my children and their interests first, but it is not always reciprocated with the other parent. I pray that God never lets go of them and continues to guide them even though they are going to have major temptations and decisions to make in the coming years. Starting today I am going to commit to pray for them even MORE everyday that they never decide to leave my house for the other parent. What a horrible start of the day. But God is good and I will forever praise His name for He will not forsake me or forget me in these hurting times. The scripture I will hold onto for today Proverbs 3: 5-6 “5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”My current husband is a God send. He a strong Christian man with a deep faith in the Bible. He is always the one who can pull me up during these rough days and let me know that together we will pray for the children and trust the Lord with them. These children are ultimately the Lord’s children in which he has trusted me to be the mother. The Lord God will place a shield of protection around my children and their lives. Thank you Lord for allowing me to be the mother of these two precious children. I trust in you to protect them and guide them in the way that is right. Thank you also for my husband who you have sent to me for a second chance. God you are good all the time.

Here it goes - my first post

So I have now entered the world of blogging. I have been reading the blogs of many people over the past year and I have decided that I would attempt to blog. I figure if even if no one else reads my blog it would be a great way to document the events in my life. So let me warn you. I am not a great writer. I am just a 32 year old wife, mother, and Christ follower that is attempting to put some of my crazy life in a blog.

So I thought I would start this blog by listing 25 Random Things About Me. That way if you are reading this blog and you don't know me, you can find out a little about me.

1. First of all, I love God and my family above all things. I have a wonderful husband and two great kids - Cade (7) and Addyson (5).
2. I come from a family of four children and my parents are still married and my family is really close.
3. God has given me the greatest life full of second chances. I remarried a year ago to the most amazing God centered man. God has given me and my children a second chance at true love and a family.
4. My husband , me, and my ex-husband all went to middle school and high school together. Weird I know.
5. I hate snakes. I can't even look at them without wanting to run.
6. I never really liked my red hair until I was in my 20's. Now I am more secure with myself and love the color of hair God gave me.
7. I failed my driving test twice when I was 16. The third time I finally passed.
8. I love to sing, but my voice is not great. I will never try out for American Idol.
9. I coach Upward Cheerleading for my daughter's squad and LOVE IT!
10. I love children and want to have more.
11. I am currently on a low carb diet that my doctor has placed me on. After 3 weeks I have lost 12 pounds. I guess the doctor was right, but I sure do miss pizza.
13. I love to country line dance and I love country music.
14. I was born in Atlanta, GA and grew up in Mableton, GA. I graduated from the same high school that my parents did.
15. I wish I could be a stay at home mom. My job with the government is great but I feel like my kids need me even more now.
16. I hate mornings and I have to wake up at 4:30 AM to go to work.
17. Most days I feel like a 16 year old girl trapped in a 32 year old body.
18. Some days I wish I could go back and change the things in my life I really messed up.
19. My best friends are the ones I met in college.
20. I love to play softball and volleyball.
21. In high school I did a little of everything. I sang in chorus, played softball, basketball, volleyball, and ran track. I was also in the drama club and in the colorguard in band.
22. In college, I went to New York with the band to march in the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade.
23. I want to travel to Greece and Italy.
24. I want to go on a mission trip.
25. I love the beach and my favorite place to vacation is Mexico.

That is all for now. I will post some more soon.